Do you believe things happen for a reason? Do you believe in signs?
In hindsight, there were so many opportunities that I could've became something really big, but for some reason, it would never happen. For this reason, I became very bitter and pessimistic. I felt like God had something against me and that I had the worst luck ever.
But, it recently just came full circle for me. Through those missed opportunities and disappointments, so much more came from it. I was able to go on to record with a lot of top notch producers and work with a lot of respected artists in the Hip Hop industry. Maybe back then, I was too immature. Maybe He felt like I wasn't ready to handle it. Since then, I've definitely grown up a whole lot. I see things in such a different light. I approach situations with a positive energy and I understand the politics behind all of it. Perhaps, it was His way of training me and molding me to reach my full potential. I always sold myself short because I never felt confident. I never had a purpose. I never knew who I really was.
It's sort of funny how there's a sign everywhere. You may feel like you'll never get an answer to your question, but if you pay close attention... you're surrounded by it.
Over the weekend, I did a show that was sponsored by Power 106. I felt like I did a terrible job and so my ride home was pretty much a "let's beat down on Shin-B" fest. But, a funny thing happened. As I was driving on the freeway, I saw a random Power 106 van drive right beside me. I sort of took that as confirmation that I did alright.
I've also been meeting a lot of like-minded individuals. It's so random sometimes and it throws me off guard. Over the years, I've dealt with a lot of negative people; negative people filled with empty promises and cheap words. I was SO done with it. So, for awhile, I secluded myself and lived a very sheltered life. It's been lonely, but it was drama-free.
I took it, as yet, another sign. Funny thing is, these like-minded individuals are all strong in their faith, as well. God is blessing me with an army of positivity and hope. I so desperately needed a team and I feel like I'm slowly gathering that team now. I look forward to it.
"Signs"
-Shin-B
